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>>841169
>>841169
Hmm, I see you really loved your friends here way back when.
Sorry to hear you feel alienated, but yeah, I was never on this chan 10 years ago. I wasn't here even 5 years ago. When 420chan was on its last legs it looked really bad and ugly too, only the worst users remained, me probably among them, but when it died I realized it was still a loss of family for me. You probably feel similar now. Like the user base has really gone to shit. Yeah, it was like that on 420 too, for years even before kill, but it's spirit still echoed and it was still precious now I realize in retrospect.
My biggest adventures ended up being doing drugs and just going through life in general that I feel like is really fucking wild all by itself. Especially the drugs but I don't see many drug takers of my sort here... What a great culture we had especially in the hallucinogen boards, my brother... My heart feels strange talking about it. I suppose most of those people are dead or have life drained out of them, especially on del, but what a community it was, I'm still in awe even after all them years. Mostly in awe of my own experiences, but it was just nice to know there were some people as crazy as you or crazy in another way that was surprising and beautiful. Those are my real people, but I don't want to go on non-anon forums and look for that again and even if they're there they will no longer be growing up in the 2000s and all 18 year old and bold and stupid and fun.. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed about it, but I do sometimes miss it a little bit or at the very least appreciate having witnessed it. It was beautiful. My life was super heavy and difficult at the time, but that community, drugs, a bit of gaming, a bit of art and music, it made a unique tapestry that I appreciate right now still.
I don't feel alienated, because there seems to be plenty of the worst degenerates here which I happen to relate to and also things here make me laugh which is nice, because while there are some funny things on social media, few things produce real gutteral laughs, mostly it's kind of funny, but ultimately doesn't make me go nuts, this place feels more like my kind of comedy. On the other hand I've been thinking lately that I'm basically deluding myself that these people are that funny and basically inventing a funny or funniest angle to everything and actually you're a bunch of really horrible loosers. All the intelectual discussion lately seems to be proving that, but I guess I already knew my belief systems won't align with anyone's here, but somehow still considered you my brothers. I don't know why. Maybe loneliness on my part.
I did some traveling he
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