So about a year and a half ago, I was scrolling on DeviantArt when this ( https://www.deviantart.com/avchonline/art/Octavia-the-world-of-my-own-777725763 ) caught my eye. Immediately after clicking on it, I felt a very strange feeling. Almost uncanny, but not necessarily in a negative way as that word usually implies; more in an out-of-place way. Prior to seeing it, I had been doing something I often did at the time, which was browsing deviantart and rapidly downloading related artwork through the right-hand sidebar. I was doing it quickly and wasn't really that much attention, but as soon I found this particular artwork, I stopped in my tracks and was immediately fixated in a very jarring way.
For a solid minute or two, I stared intently at the image; not only contemplating the image itself, but trying to understand exactly what I was feeling as well. After thinking for some time, I thought to myself that it had a strong aura of innocence and serenity.
Immediately afterwards, I found the artist's other artwork. Hundreds upon hundreds of images of My Little Ponies in tutus ( https://crba.dedyn.io ). At first, I thought it was very peculiar, maybe even a bit "cringe worthy", but within about fifteen minutes, all of that melted away into an irresistible infatuation with it.
Before I can continue, I need to give a bit of background. I've had a recurring type of dream for long time. In them, I encounter or get ahold of some mystical abstract object. Importantly, it can only be comprehend within the dream. In many of them, I even become self-aware of this and desperately attempt to take it out of the dream. When I wake up, I remember the rest of the dream, but the "thing" is blanked out of the dream, occasionally with "corona"-like feeling of almost being able to get ahold of it but not quite.
Anyway, what happened after looking at the artwork for some time was a sudden shift in my perception. I began to visually perceive the artwork with an entirely new mode of perception. This mode of perception is also something I had also seen only in dreams before. The best description I can muster is a transcendental level of sharpness where something becomes so sharp that your lowest level of visual perception sees things that can't be perceived in reality. Like seeing new colors, but for edges and shapes.
As this happened, everything else on my mind and in the world faded away completely and I was completely immersed within this new world I was perceived. It was a complete trance that didn't snap even for a moment.
When looking at the artwork, one particular word came to mind: "saccharine". I felt this incredible mix of total serenity and ethereal beauty, combined with an entirely new pla
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