I don't think he would want you to suffer so much due to his loss, anon. Loss is very hard but you should make the best out of what you have. Live a good life for him, I'm sure he wants you to.

>>7009
That was unexpectedly wholesome. Thank you.

>>6996
my dad died a few years ago and i hardly think about him at all. he wasn't a bad dad either. i cried once a few weeks after he died because i had a dream where we said goodbye to each other. it's strange how different people deal with things. but i guess i did have bad feelings/fears about him dying for a long time before he actually died, so maybe it was like an inoculation against the grief when it actually happened.

That is...

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>>7012
That's the difference. He died suddenly and kinda young, so I hadn't gotten to the point in my life where I started to worry about it. I was no where near prepared for it.

On the upside, I didn't cry about him today. >>7009's post really helped me.

>>6996
I wish you were not dominated with affliction so you may not wish a nice man to have been a bad one

Its been 13 years man. You have wasted a good part of your life grieving. Time to move on and live the good part of your life.

You gotta let it go man.
My mom died 5 years ago and I fucked my life up getting a DUI and it's still fucking with me to this day, Let it go man, it's not worth it. They gave you a lot of wonderful years. Don't regret that they are gone be thankful that they happened.

I lost my dad too and miss him every day. I am disappointed that I won't live up to what he was.