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Hmm, I see you really loved your friends here way back when.
Sorry to hear you feel alienated, but yeah, I was never on this chan 10 years ago. I wasn't here even 5 years ago. When 420chan was on its last legs it looked really bad and ugly too, only the worst users remained, me probably among them, but when it died I realized it was still a loss of family for me. You probably feel similar now. Like the user base has really gone to shit. Yeah, it was like that on 420 too, for years even before kill, but it's spirit still echoed and it was still precious now I realize in retrospect.
My biggest adventures ended up being doing drugs and just going through life in general that I feel like is really fucking wild all by itself. Especially the drugs but I don't see many drug takers of my sort here... What a great culture we had especially in the hallucinogen boards, my brother... My heart feels strange talking about it. I suppose most of those people are dead or have life drained out of them, especially on del, but what a community it was, I'm still in awe even after all them years. Mostly in awe of my own experiences, but it was just nice to know there were some people as crazy as you or crazy in another way that was surprising and beautiful. Those are my real people, but I don't want to go on non-anon forums and look for that again and even if they're there they will no longer be growing up in the 2000s and all 18 year old and bold and stupid and fun.. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed about it, but I do sometimes miss it a little bit or at the very least appreciate having witnessed it. It was beautiful. My life was super heavy and difficult at the time, but that community, drugs, a bit of gaming, a bit of art and music, it made a unique tapestry that I appreciate right now still.
I don't feel alienated, because there seems to be plenty of the worst degenerates here which I happen to relate to and also things here make me laugh which is nice, because while there are some funny things on social media, few things produce real gutteral laughs, mostly it's kind of funny, but ultimately doesn't make me go nuts, this place feels more like my kind of comedy. On the other hand I've been thinking lately that I'm basically deluding myself that these people are that funny and basically inventing a funny or funniest angle to everything and actually you're a bunch of really horrible loosers. All the intelectual discussion lately seems to be proving that, but I guess I already knew my belief systems won't align with anyone's here, but somehow still considered you my brothers. I don't know why. Maybe loneliness on my part.
I did some traveling here and there, but it all completely insignificant compared to life in general and compared to art and compared to psychedelics for the most part. I'm that guy... Still can't believe my trips and just basically all my life I'll be looping on that.
Maybe I should like stop being a looser, get a girl I actually like and create new life, but then I look at my family bros and if anything they've only gotten boringier. Well but fitness is really nice, I hope to dedicate more energy and time to that and effort in general. I really admire David Goggins. I don't know if that's something I can connect on with you guys, but yeah, it is what it is. I guess we're all just chasing the dragon, on the other hand, this chan genuinely makes me very glad and happy from time to time and like I'm not completely alone in this crazy global society.
Don't be down liru. Maybe I post too much... I know I cause you to feel alienated. But I gotta do my thing or I'll die of boredom here. Also I'm horny, so I horny post a lot. Stupid man. But I cannot expect actual smart discussion with anyone here, I've seen your level of IQ and beliefs in general. I'm not going to say you are worse than the average, but goddamn you guys are no geniuses either. Now you make me feel bad about myself. Maybe I should spend less time on puters and do more real stuff and then share that real stuff around and focus less on social shit in general. Actual physical benefits and resources and art is like obviously nice to give. Idk dude. Life's crazy. I know my body wants to procreate, yet everything rational in me says that it's mostly empty pleasures and I don't find any hoes actually interesting to spend time with. Then I know there are real transcendental things, but usually I'm too scared or too lonely to base my life on those. And all of you all are too dumb to talk about it with, I'm only talking with liru about it, because he has an innocence of a 12 year old retarded boy.
Anyway, I hold no animosity against anyone and I'm sorry if I'm annoying I have said already and I'll say it again, just ban me if I have overextended my stay, I know I might have presumed upon the good nature of the owners and staff here, so honestly I'll harbor no ill will against anyone if that's my fate.
I'd like to hug you but you are probably greasy fat old men and I wouldn't enjoy it. So maybe I should after all get into some nice shape and start making bank... Find a 17 y/o where that's legal and hug her insteas, but idk dude. For now I'd just like to take health a bit more seriously and hopefully be healthy enough to work out hard AF at least once in my life. I used to do a lot of physical activity but nothing like Goggins or any of these MF. I wouldn't want to die never even having tried it.. never mind how capable I find myself being in it. I just wouldn't want to die and never even having tried, some of the hard physical training, like really hard. IDK, I guess that's one adventure that I can share with you now, that I'm excited about, that presumably you could understand, liru-tan.