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Would you say it was inspirational in any way or is it something you would have rather never seen and now just prefer to hide and compartmentalize rather than integrate into your understanding of fellow humans (and your relationships thus then?
I've seen a fair number of executions, but it didn't make me want to quit watching gore, it's just that the novelty wore off and most of what I wanted to learn from it I think I did.
I wouldn't say it was particularly disturbing, but I guess one that stands out in my mind is when I think it was some Chechen soldiers that slit the throats of some Russian POWs. Or the other way around. But they were laughing. I think quite genuinely. It struck me as extraordinary, because of how detached from your own mortality you have to be to genuinely be having fun from it. I mean I can understand it from anger or from a power(lessness) trip, but some guys were shouting/crying for mom, which, you know, that's cool, he had a nice mom I guess, were close, but yeah, mocking and laughing is pretty disturbing. I don't regret watching any of it, but I did loose interest, because mostly I think it's just people in really bad places that perpetuate that shit. Not particularly inspiring and not particularly enlightening. I've seen enough to know the range of experience is real wide. Mostly because of drugs. People are relatively boring. Although they do venture to some dark places that are a bit extraordinary in that sense. Like in the video you mentioned. Something about blunt object damage feels less desirable.
The one I mentioned stood out for me because I once died myself... And while dying I was laughing. Out of the sheer ignorance of their own mortality of those guys in the video. Probably the hardest I ever laughed in my life, it was actually just screaming, from the outside perspective, but I knew I was laughing. At that moment I was very aware of my own mortality. So the whole thing was truly hilarious. Until I was laughing no more... And that was just the beginning....
But I'm just having a discussion here, this is not an answer to the OP. It's hard for me to answer it. I think the machinery of the universe can be much scarier than... Much more disturbing than anything a human can do. But those words are not really descriptive enough. But it's outside of the scope of this thread. I'm not a doomer, but I've felt and known the feelings of Doom in quite a pure form. And in some ways that is the worst, but I would only say that in the sub-breakthrough experiences.. beyond that, it's really hard to put your finger on anything. But the universe is a big and a rather strange place. Our home. It's interesting.
But yeah, if I really think about it, probably the people... Is my answer to OP. People in really bad places mentally. But not psychopaths. Just people in really bad places. It can shock you if you yourself haven't gone through a wide enough range to appreciate just how wide the human experience is. But anyhow, that's not the most spicy stuff, is it? That's not the most interesting aspect of humanity, is it?
I guess I'm contradicting myself a little bit. By first saying that there's nothing much extraordinary about humans except for how extraordinarily bad they sometimes are... No, I guess I take that back. If that was really the case, I wouldn't be interested in humanity. So there goes my own compartmentalization. I like the beauty and the creativity. There is some of that here. People can tune into some pretty interesting things and energies. So you know, yeah, I guess it's pretty extraordinary. It's hard to tell what is my own and what is truly coming from the outside. It's easy to disown all of that execution type stuff. But when I'm inspired by music for example... It's my own feeling that I'm generating, but it's nonetheless inspired by the creativity and imagination of someone else. But yeah, long story short, I do like people. There is extraordinary and magical among us. In us.